I've got a lot of kind people to thank for saving me this weekend and today. To JBTC, she was very concerned that I was thinking about taking BCP, a drastic step in coping with failed TTC. I read her kind and challenging words (tough love) to me about this issue. Her support along with more time in prayer this weekend, I decided to lady-up and pull myself together, i.e. not take the BCP. As a bonus to this situation, my pharmacy agreed to take the medication back for a refund. Frugal husband will be delighted. ;)
I know Lauren's had a tremendous amount of stress and heartache to endure, but she took the time to write some kind words about me. I had no idea there were so many Anne fans out there! And to ACL, we were apparently on the same page yesterday about faking it until you make it. Even though we're out of the prayer buddy cycle now, she was still one of my prayer intentions "held silently in my heart" at Mass last night. God bless!
We did actually end up doing the sushi on Saturday, but with a bill of $115, my husband said he didn't want to make this a monthly date. :) It wasn't so much the sushi that pushed us that high, I think it was the three large Sapporos and the hot saki. Alcohol and food wasn't doing it for me so my faking it entailed working out for an hour Sunday despite a headache, straightening my hair, putting on more makeup than usual, taking deeper breaths, standing up straighter, and wearing a nice dress to church. And I put a lot of effort into paying attention to my hubby. After all that, I felt a lot better about my circumstances. More on this later, but I think I've been hitting this TTC thing way too hard.