Yesterday, I got our money back from the returned BCP. I felt really silly doing that, but I tried to act like I wasn't embarrassed. We're in the middle of the chairmanship coup d'etat but that should be resolved by Thursday, so hopefully we'll be moving back to getting a good night's sleep. I'm yawning as I type. Anyone who is already praying for my pathetic soul (I kid, I kid), could you also send one up for my husband? He's terribly upset about what's happening and the absolute lameness and jerkish behavior of the other men on the Board. I feel terrible for me and us as this will mean some changes in our day-to-day routines. Nothing too big, but a change nonetheless.
On the baby-making front, we talked about the HSG and how the results will show everything's open (my prediction.) Then the husband said, "Once that's over, treatment's over, right since you said you weren't inclined to do the laparascopy? And we are not doing IVF." I was a little miffed about the IVF statement not because I consider it an option for me/us but that I didn't want my husband making declarative statements about my infertility. Picky, yes. I want all my options on the table, even ones I've taken off the table. :)
[Husband] - So, what are we doing, are we taking a break?
[Me] - I look at it this way. You need to have sex to make a baby [most of the time], I want to continue to have a sex-filled marriage. Do you want to continue having sex with me?
[Husband] - Yeah, I do.
And, in a nutshell, that's where I'm at. I'll continue popping Fertile CM, and if the mood strikes, we'll do it. It's not TTC, it's just sex. That sounds a lot more fun.
Hey there, thanks for your comment and nice to "meet" you! I'm actually considering going on depo myself (made me go "huh!" when I saw your mention of the BCP). For maybe stranger reasons - not to "avoid" (at five years of TTC, I REALLY don't believe any method whatever would be needed) but to beat back some of the aggressive endo without *another* surgery. I would never in a million years have expected I might take the diesel pill (I've actually never used any form of contraception, and only sort of flirted with NFP for maybe three months. High school sex ed lies, y'all) - in hopes of having a baby. What an insane world.
ReplyDeleteI understand wanting a break. I stopped charting for two years for the break. It was helpful. It's so hard to attain that balance of doing what you can- and being humbled and trusting Him! Praying for you and your marriage.
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You made my day!! :)
Sounds like a great plan! And I second Lauren on the word verification! :)
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness. Where have you been all my life? Your blog is hilarious.
ReplyDeleteBet the look on your husband's face was priceless when you asked if he still wanted to have sex with you. Good for you!!
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