I think this is an oft not discussed topic for us infertility bloggers and definitely not on Ash Wednesday but here goes. My main reason for resenting my status as a subfertile is that it most certainly stresses our sexual relationship. Two people can't be on the same page all the time and things might come up like work stress or maybe he hurt my feelings or maybe I made him angry or he's not in the mood at fertile time (even though I might technically be not in the mood at fertile time, I force myself but he does not feel that compunction.)
The window of opportunity is dang short and we've only got at most twelve tries in a year that to let one month slip by is almost unthinkable. Sure, we skipped last month with the final Clomid dose disaster but that was more for purity of my soul. What makes me sad is that he sees BDing as work. He doesn't seem to get that I'm doing the very best I can to make those times great experiences where I hope he feels he got something out of it. Intellectually, it can't make sense that it's work (when did sex become unpleasurable?) so is he just trying to hurt my feelings by saying that it is? I mean how do you come back from that?
It's already a delicate situation with both of our work schedules crazy busy and seriously challenging. I guess I'm looking at Lent as more of a burden than a blessing. I just hope and perhaps you can pray that I'm able to weather this personal storm and come out of it with some amount of grace. Marriage can be very trying on the soul sometimes.