My hopes were so high when I took 50 mg of Clomid the last cycle after one cycle of 25 mg. So, it was no surprise how upset I was that my period came like 11-post peak clock work. Because I've been having chronic headaches for the last two weeks and the thought of more anxiety problems with Clomid was unpalatable, I told my husband that I'm not taking it this month. Maybe next month. I did inform Dr. S.tigen's office that I couldn't get the P+7 blood draw last month because that was Christmas day. Why I didn't tell her that I'm skipping the Clomid this month, I can't explain. Maybe I just didn't want to get into it.... Like, hey, ovulation stimulation is not working or at least that's not the solution. Despite no test results to confirm its efficacy, I'm down on drugs right now.
I called the doctor mainly to ask why I should be taking the Biaxin when I don't have a bacterial infection. I only took elementary microbiology but I know that antibiotics kill bacteria. Everybody has good bacteria and I don't want to kill that off. If no bad bacteria's around, what in heck is the Biaxin actually doing for me, and my husband??? I'm not seeing the logic here.
I got an appointment with my old psychiatrist for next Friday, two weeks. I did tell the receptionist that if she had a cancellation in the meantime, I'm happy to pick that up. The thought of seeing a doctor for something other than gynecological issues makes me absolutely giddy. Well, maybe not giddy but at least it piques my interest. Technically this is not a good start to 2011 but I'm working with what I've got.
I do believe God's plan. I just wish I knew what His intentions were with me. How can everything look so normal, and then not be?