I read Just Being's last entry yesterday. She made some very good points, not all of which I agree with but it reminds me that being an infertile blogger has social consequences like anything in real life. Some people will get more attention, some will say things to upset others, some will disappoint you in a myriad of ways. All that's happened to me and I suspect I've done it to somebody else.
Because I spend a lot of time anxious and critical, I think several times before I write negative things about other people. I've got problems with other bloggers at times, yes but I know most people aren't out to hurt others and if I walk away, I'll forget about it. And I prefer that state. I mean, I have major philosophical differences with the majority of you out there and what's the point of driving home my undying support of strong womens' rights laws, including abortion. You obviously disagree, let's not beat a dead horse. (I hate that analogy.) Oh, but by the way, I can't stand to read how birth control pills are the root of all evil and are the direct cause of all female maladies. Really? Come on.
But, I will say that it does upset me when I write about a sensitive topic or one I really care about and I don't get a single comment. Mea culpa, I rarely comment anymore. So, I just go ahead and delete those posts. Why let it hang out if no one is demonstrably interested? But people are reading. I track you, I know the city you live in ;) so I hope you have a good time reading.
No one is who they say they are on their blog. I'm certainly not. I've experienced and done things I would never share here even though I think it would shed a lot of light on what kind of person I am and what has motivated me. I don't have the time to write about all my current events no matter how interesting I think they are or how interesting they would be to read. I like my blog because this is the only way I'd keep a diary. Modern life is sad, right?
Becoming a Catholic, learning Creighton, finding out I'm infertile have all been major milestones in my life. And I'm glad I can weigh those lessons against what I know to be rational and true. Faith is different from that and I keep much of it separate. I know God works for me and I also know that Creighton doesn't work for me. I wouldn't have known that without the help of the infertile blog community and I thank you so very much for that. We don't all have to get pregnant and have children to come to conclusions about our predicament.
I'll keep blogging, because it's mostly fun. And I'll try not to take it personally when you don't comment. I just hope you find my blog and entertaining and educational experience.