Friday, May 18, 2012

It's time for me to move along; it's time for me to get it on; I'm tired of singing sad songs

It's been hard and sad for me to read recent posts from TCIE and JellyBelly.  I hate to see them both suffer and have been suffering for so long.  I guess it was harder since I've felt so much stronger lately.  I felt like I'd prepared myself so well for Mother's Day and it all really worked out.  The priest didn't have mothers stand up for a blessing but I'd decided that if he had, dammit I was going to stand up, too.  God knows what we've been through, how hard we've tried, how faithful we've been.  I felt no sense of loss this year.  I've had it up to here with suffering.

I'm starting a master's program in the fall.  I'd resisted getting an advanced degree especially since we got married because I figured I'd have children by now and wanted to devote my time to them, not a degree.  But those that won't exist shouldn't be waited on.  The high-level jobs I want demand a master's degree and my company does offer some amount of tuition reimbursement so it's a win-win plan.  It's two years and certainly a time commitment away from my marriage but it's for the long-term good.  I'm excited for the future.


  1. I hear you on seeing others suffer - it's so hard for so many reasons.

    Good for you for moving forward. I think the absolute hardest part of this whole IF thing is figuring out how to live the life i've been given while hoping for the life I want without missing out on all of it.

  2. Congrats on your decision to pursue the Masters!

    Ps.I wanted to comment on your previous posts, but I just wasn't able to figure out quite what to say. Surreal.

  3. Strong, strong lady! You are very inspiring! really. Moving forward with God's plan and living the life He gave you. God Bless!!!

  4. I got an advanced degree myself...and did that when I realized I wasn't going to be a mother. I feel good about my new career now and I am looking forward to living my life! Good for you on pursuing your other dreams and good luck with your new endeavor of taking classes.

  5. Good for you! Grad school was one of the best decisions I've ever made and I hope it turns out well for you too!