It's been hard and sad for me to read recent posts from TCIE and JellyBelly. I hate to see them both suffer and have been suffering for so long. I guess it was harder since I've felt so much stronger lately. I felt like I'd prepared myself so well for Mother's Day and it all really worked out. The priest didn't have mothers stand up for a blessing but I'd decided that if he had, dammit I was going to stand up, too. God knows what we've been through, how hard we've tried, how faithful we've been. I felt no sense of loss this year. I've had it up to here with suffering.
I'm starting a master's program in the fall. I'd resisted getting an advanced degree especially since we got married because I figured I'd have children by now and wanted to devote my time to them, not a degree. But those that won't exist shouldn't be waited on. The high-level jobs I want demand a master's degree and my company does offer some amount of tuition reimbursement so it's a win-win plan. It's two years and certainly a time commitment away from my marriage but it's for the long-term good. I'm excited for the future.